Staring into the nether Its like a giant void Waiting for whatever will eventually be deployed Its a space an emptiness Of darkness and yet Its not dark it's just lacking fulfillment of intent So I wonder What will live here When will it arrive When will it be there The thing that's supposed to full the vacancy Of whatever the reason the abyss was originally Built for Carved out to store A vision incomplete or Is it too soon and we need to wait some more Its a mind fuck I'm completely stuck Overthinking Whats the meaning Help me get out of this brain Cos it's gonna drive me crazy insane I walk away and stare elsewhere But my mind cant help but drift back To that hollow nothingness of black And even if I stop My body cant seem to I dont mean to Obsessively cling to This thing i cant explain Its embedded in my brain And it's driving me crazy so fucking crazy insane Fuck not again Quick I need to trick Myself into forgetting Pull me from regretting Why did I have to look Why did I see Why couldn't I just walk away and accept curiosity No.. I had to wonder and try To guess what could possibly be in there and why What if it's waiting for me to jump in it and die Wait Is that it? Don't lie Tell me You have to say Is that why I cant see it today? I'm not supposed to I'm not ready And if I keep trying to see it could be deadly So maybe I should stop now Incase this is the end somehow And im just digging an early grave Instead of trusting and riding the wave I'm just falling without knowing into the cave That will consume me if dont just click control alt S and save Leave it alone For fuck sake you've always known Its the inevitable written in stone When it's supposed to, you cant postpone There's no option but to live while you live So dont focus on that hugely big hole of massive Don't do more or give more than you need to give Its just a waste of time cos for now you're fucking fine You're just scared of something you cant control for what? So you dont have to walk around with that looming hole That you know one day its for your soul To lay itself when your body gives out When your flesh prison goes south Do we just sit there in the void without a view For the rest of however long is forever times two Or can I decorate it Hang pictures and make it Look bright and pretty like a homely place So I can at least look forward to the space That I'll curl up and shrivel away in Seems only fair right? Well that's ok then Ha.. cha ching that's the thing The answer to this hole of nothing The walls are painted by my congruency moments I live with integrity darkness only stays from truency When I sit consistently in avoidency annoyingly Noone else can brighten that dark Its up to be fuck I better start I hope im not too late Please I see it now please wait I want to to but not before I get to line those walls with your Face your smile your eyes I'm sorry I didn't see you sooner I tried And now ... its over. Its too late. I died.

Voided hole of darkness