Breaking Down

I could write a melody so heavenly

But nothing really separates the enemy in me

Momma said don’t worry, I was listening

Now I stare at the mirror like, who is he?

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You’ve been my muse for a long time

Got me through every dark night

I’m always gone, chasing my own life

You’re at home, staring at porch lights

I’m too consumed with my own mind

Trying to grow up in real time

Are we too young for this pressure?

Feels like I’m stuck, can’t move, can’t let ya

I don’t wanna play this part

But I do, all for you

Sharing my heart, it’s tearing me apart

Every step forward pulls me in two

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Doing what I can, tryna be a man

But I don’t feel strong, I just feel tired

Every time I kiss you, baby

I hear the sound of something cracking inside

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I work all day and cry all night

I really hate my life, I’m not alright

I waste my time inside my mind

Still trying to prove that I’m worth your time

I’d miss you bad if I left right now

But staying here got me breaking down

I really hate my life, I’m not alright

I’m trying to love you while I’m losing the fight

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Sometimes feel like I gotta cry

Other times got my eye on the prize

They say, “Bro, you been winning at life”

But success don’t silence the lies

Money won’t fix what I feel inside

My ego small, but my fear’s sky high

Getting older, finding pieces of me

Just to realize they don’t wanna stay with me

You’re like the sun, you wake me up

But too much light drains me out

I need some room or I might break

But space feels like I’m pushing you away

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I don’t want to make this hard

But I do ‘cause I’m still confused

Trying to build something real

While I’m falling apart with you

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I work all day and cry all night

I really hate my life, I’m not alright

I’m asleep all day, wake up tired

Text my friends like, “yeah, I just got fired”

I’d miss you bad if I left right now

But loving me feels like burning out

I really hate my life, I’m not alright

But I’m still here, yeah, I’m still trying

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I don’t hate you

I just hate being alone

I keep running from my home

Hoping one day this pain lets go

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Sharing my heart, it’s tearing me apart

But I know I’d miss you, baby

If I left right now