Life

Just a thought

Sometimes becomes reality,

even when it is scary.

Scarlet blades,

life ebbing and flowing,

slowly leaving.

Desperate souls hidden behind plastic smiles

lips barely shy of the eyes

that are dead inside

And all the pain building up like an incoming tide

tearing at my heart

Feel so alone

deep into the unknown

Deep into the unknown

You are my reality

The truth, the life, and the way

My soul is desperate

But you are my peace

You are here with me

The pain builds up inside

But it will not hold me back

Because you are a God

That breaks all chains

Your life flows in my veins

I told my friends that I’ll be there for them

I told them that as long as I’m alive

they won’t be alone

They told me I should expect the same

but I find it hard to believe

and I get no relief

If I’m supposed to trust

if I’m supposed to tell the truth

honestly—how would I be viewed

They tell me that I can talk to them

I said, I believe what you say

but do I really because my thoughts seem to sway

why is it that I still end up suppressing every feeling that I feel

Pushing down the tears

Picking the emotions from the inside

lungs closing up, choking on the air that I can’t breathe.

And I can’t breathe

You are my reality

The truth, the life, and the way

My soul is desperate

But you are my peace

You are here with me

The pain builds up inside

But it will not hold me back

Because you are a God

That breaks all chains

Your life flows in my veins

And I hear your voice in the back of my mind

I feel you fighting for my soul

Thoughts impulsively invading me as a whole

Never quiet, always screaming

so chaotic

And your quiet no

breaking the forces that were demonic

You are my reality

The truth, the life, and the way

My soul is desperate

But you are my peace

You are here with me

The pain builds up inside

But it will not hold me back

Because you are a God

That breaks all chains

Your life flows in my veins

Your harmony makes all the difference

It isn’t a battle against flesh and blood any longer

You will win this war

no matter how many battles it takes

I won’t let this stop me

not fear, not stress, not anxiety

’cause you said I was made in your image

You said that you live inside me

So I won’t let this stop me

I won’t let this stop me

Cause it’s not who I was meant to be

I am your masterpiece

no matter how broken I feel

No matter how scared I am

And I can’t ever earn your love

I always want to give it up

But your love, my life, it is a gift

So I place it in your hands

the God who understands.

You fight for me

and I will never earn it

And I can say that you have so many better things to do

You have so many people more worth saving than me

And all I hear

in response is But I can be everywhere all at once

I have no excuse not to say thank you

You still choose me, even when I wouldn’t choose myself

even when I put myself on the shelf

You were here for me,

You are with me now,

Oh, you are with me now.

So I won’t be defined by my scars,

If you take pleasure in breaki