History Again

(Intro)
I hate being in my head
I hate being in my head

(Verse 1)
Phone lights up, then it doesn’t
Room feels louder when it’s dead
Everybody says they’re busy
Yeah, I’ve heard that one before

I keep checking, keep pretending
Like I don’t know how this ends
Same slow fade, same old feeling
Guess we’re here again

(Pre-Chorus)
I don’t wanna overthink it
But my chest already did
Every time it gets this quiet
I remember how it went

(Chorus)
It’s history again, again
Different names, same silence
I tell myself “don’t read into it”
But I already know I will

It’s history again, again
I feel it in my spine
Every time the room goes empty
I’m reliving it in real time

(Post-Chorus)
Again, again
Why’s it always me at the end?
Again, again
Yeah, it’s history again

(Verse 2)
I ask how you are, you don’t ask back
I say I’m fine, you let it pass
I show up, hold it together
While I’m quietly crashing fast

I don’t need a big explosion
Just the slow ghosting hurts
Nobody says they’re leaving
They just stop putting it first

(Pre-Chorus)
Maybe I’m just tired
Maybe I’m too aware
But every gap feels loaded
Like I know what’s coming there

(Chorus)
It’s history again, again
Different faces, same feeling
I keep hoping this time’s different
While my body’s already reeling

It’s history again, again
I swear I tried to believe
But every time you go quiet
Something breaks inside of me

(Bridge)
I hate being inside my head
It never lets me forget
Every silence sounds like proof
That I’m easy to neglect

I don’t wanna disappear
But I don’t wanna stay either
I just wanna feel like someone
Would notice if I’m leaving

(Chorus)
It’s history again, again
Yeah, I know this part too well
Same pause before the distance
Same story I don’t tell

It’s history again, again
Say I’m wrong — prove me right
Don’t let quiet be the thing
That makes me lose another night

(Outro)
Again, again
I hate being in my head
Again, again
Yeah… history again

female,alt rock/emo,electro pop/edm,synth undertones,technic,emotional,strong vocals,fast paced,beats,808s,dubstep