I sit alone the clock won't tick My thoughts run deep my heart feels sick The paper stares it knows my pain Words pour out like a heavy rain The mirror breaks it shows my soul A thousand pieces I can't control The pen it shakes but it still writes A scream trapped in the dead of night But in the dark I hear a sound If I do it I be hell bound A voice said hold on just one more day The dawn might bring a brand new day I fold the note and set it down If words could talk but i don't hear a sound Looking for hope looking for a glow The fight looks over I think i better go I'm writing these words I can't erase Tears fall down and stain the page In this silence I must decide My suicidal note confides what's deep inside Gallon of tears I'm trapped inside my own head Wrestling with words that need to be said Shadows creeping where light once shed Feeling like my souls already dead Me myself and I in the empty night Fighting battles but I lost the fight Dreams fading fast like a nose diving kite Darkness hugs me it's my only light As I keep searching for a reason to stay I try to have faith but the pain won't go away Trying to hold on but this goes on everyday Will someone catch me if I fall astray Lost in my mind no way out Silent screams but there's no way out Try to stay afloat but I'm drowning in the doubt Wondering to myself is this is what life's about I'm writing these words I can't erase Tears fall down and stain the page In this silence I must decide My suicidal note confides what's deep inside Gallon of tears Now I'm swimming deep in a sea of doubt Shadows creeping I can't climb out A thousand voices screaming in my head Echoes of the words I wish I never said I'm starring at the mirror but I don't see me Just a stranger like my pops I'm in misery Faking smiles yeah I wear that disguise But you could see theough it if you look in my eyes Every drops a story I can't erase Memories linger they're taking up space Trying to breathe but the weight is too strong Every moment feels like I don't belong Late night silence is my only friend Wonder if this lonely road will ever end Carrying this weight it's a heavy cost But in this flood I'm scared to get lost Gallon of tears Gallon of tears feeling up my soul Pouring like rain it's out of control Drowning in the pain it's pulling me near Sinking in the flood of this gallon of tears I'm writing these words I can't erase Tears fall down and stain the page In this silence I must decide My suicidal note confides what's deep inside Gallon of tears

Gallon of tears (my suicidal note)