Painkiller Love

(Intro – Dark, eerie keys, deep 808s rumbling in, whispering like a prayer)

God, I need strength…

She fightin" demons, but they callin" her name…

I can"t watch her drown, but I can"t feed the flames…

I been here before, and it’s breakin’ my veins…

(Beat drops – Slow, hard-hitting, deep bass with a haunting choir in the background)

(Verse 1 – Aggressive but full of pain, fast but clear delivery)

Tears on my shirt, vomit all on the floor

She beggin" for one, but I can"t give her more

Cold sweats, withdrawals, she screamin’ for help

But I seen this before, and it"s tearin" myself

I hate that I"m watchin", I hate that I care

I hate that I love her, but leave her right there

She holdin’ her stomach, she shakin’, she pale

She tell me she dyin", I’m livin’ in hell

I seen my homies get lost in the powder

Watched my own blood get consumed by the hours

Now it’s my girl, and she fallin" down lower

Every pill that she take, got me clutchin’ a flower

(Hook – Chant-like, pain in the voice, hard but emotional)

God, please help me, I need to be strong

She fightin’ these demons, been sick for too long

I can"t be the reason she keep doin’ wrong

But I hate seein" her hurt, I been broken too long

(Verse 2 – Harder, angrier, fighting inner demons, fast-paced)

I could walk away, but that’s heartless as f***

I could give her help, but that’s helpin’ too much

She be starin’ at me with them tears in her eyes

Sayin’ "Baby, just one, I ain"t ready to die"

And I’m stuck in the middle, I hate that I feel

She been chasin" a high, I been chasin" what"s real

I can’t be her savior, I can"t be her fix

But if she overdose, I can’t live with that s***

I seen this before, yeah, I know how it ends

Either six feet deep, or behind a state pen

She swear she gon’ quit, then she hide ‘em again

And I’m watchin’ her break while I break from within

(Hook – Same as before, but stronger, almost desperate)

God, please help me, I need to be strong

She fightin’ these demons, been sick for too long

I can"t be the reason she keep doin’ wrong

But I hate seein" her hurt, I been broken too long

(Bridge – Beat slows, eerie piano, deep breathing, almost whispered words)

I held my brother when he took his last breath

Watched my homies fade away, seen too much death

Now I see her goin’ down that same dark road

And I don’t know if I can watch it no more...

(Outro – Beat fades, rain sounds, distant sirens, a voicemail plays: "I love you, baby… I’m sorry…")