This is so hard

    It hurts so bad all the time. 
I'm always thinking about it and them. 
I miss yall so much. 
All of yall. 
There are certain songs that get to me because of it all.
Not having you with me every day of your life 
Not being there like I want to be.
Not helping you like I want to be.
This is so hard.
Having you all taken from me in one way or another.
Not being able to be the mother I want to be for yall. 
I miss yall so much. 
It's so hard to make it through the day without wishing yall were all here with me.
I love yall with all my heart.
And I am here in any way I can be now. 
Songs that are about others going through similar things get to me.
They just hit me so deeply.
And it makes me cry every time and think of yall.
It's so hard every day.
This is so hard.
Having you all taken from me in one way or another.
Not being able to be the mother I want to be for yall. 
I'm sure it so hard on all of yall, too.
I'm so sorry that this is the way our lives are.
Sorry, this is what life dealt us.
I wish I could make it better.
I wish I could get yall back.
But it's just not in the cards.
At least not right now.
Just know I love you with all of my heart.
Yall are still my world.
This is so hard. 
Having you all taken from me in one way or another.
Not being able to be the mother I want to be for yall. 
I'm so sorry, my babies. 
I love all 4 of yall more than you know.
Just know I'm only a call away.
And you can call me any time in your life's.
I'm here anyway I can be.
I love yall, and yall are my world.
I hate this every day.
This hurts so bad
I love yall so much
I love yall to the moon and past.
Mommy loves yall
      Mommy loves yall

female, pop rock, emotional mood