Prompt / Lyrics
[Intro] Yeah… I wish this was fiction. But I lived it. [Verse 1] I was hurt before I ever learned how to heal So I built armor from habits, learned how to feel By escapin’, by runnin’, by numb-in’ the pain Smilin’ in public, privately breakin’ in frames Every promise I made felt sincere at the time But sincerity fades when you’re duckin’ the climb I said “trust me” with fingers already crossed Didn’t know self-betrayal came bundled with loss I was scared to be honest, addicted to noise Every bad decision dressed up as a choice I needed love but I chased validation Mistook desperation for motivation [Pre-Hook] They tried to hold me together, I tore at the seams Said “I’m fine” while I drowned in my own disbelief [Hook] This ain’t bad luck, this heartbreak math Every step I ignored came back double fast I lit the spark just to feel something warm Now I’m freezin’ in the quiet after everything’s gone I ain’t lose it to fate or a twist in the plot I lost everything slow to the pain I would not stop [Verse 2] I let pride speak louder than fear ever could Chose lookin’ strong over doin’ what’s good Love begged me to stay, I said “you’ll be okay” Now I’d trade every win just to hear you say my name Nights feel longer when guilt keeps you awake Rewindin’ the moments you can’t recreate I replay your silence, that last tired sigh That look in your eyes sayin’ “I’m done tryin’” I didn’t mean to destroy what I didn’t know how to keep I just didn’t think consequences cut this deep [Pre-Hook] Every bridge I burned lit my way for a mile Till I ran outta light and got lost in denial [Hook] This ain’t bad luck, this emotional debt Every “I’ll change tomorrow” I ain’t paid yet I fed the fire just to feel alive Now the ashes spell out every reason you left my life I ain’t lose it to time or a random plot I lost everything slow to the pain I would not stop [Verse 3] I look in the mirror, see who I was And who I could’ve been if I chose different drugs Different habits, different reactions Instead of runnin’ from love, runnin’ from fraction If regret had a voice, it’d sound just like me Sayin’ “you knew better,” still lettin’ it be I thought rock bottom meant fallin’ apart Didn’t know it meant livin’ with a fractured heart I don’t hate who I was, I just mourn what I lost Every lesson I learned came with permanent cost [Bridge] Ain’t nobody push me, I slipped from my grip Watched my life crack slow from the weight of my fists If you’re hearin’ this now and you’re still in control Please choose what I didn’t before it takes hold [Final Hook] This ain’t bad luck, this truth exposed Every tear I dodged finally overflowed I made the call, I heard it drop Now I live with the man I could not stop If there’s wisdom in everything I lost You don’t lose it all once — You lose it in thoughts [Outro] Yeah… Sometimes the worst punishment Is rememberin’ exactly When you could’ve changed everything.
Tags
Dark piano, slow trap drums, distant strings, heavy 808, echoing vox chops, emotional build with drop. slow decay pain
Duration
4:09
Instrumental
No
Created
1/12/2026