Absentee

Mindsets plagued and generationaly cursed

The only way we leave aways in a Hurst

LIke Ain't no fucking way we were birthed

From mothers who ain't know what they worth

So they threw it all away at the first escape

Couldn't wait to leave till after first grade?

Till after I learn to write more than my first name

Well that was just the first heart break

Then you'd come back just to part ways

Like leave it your all or leave it alone

Ain't felt at home since I was young

Mom dealt with the same with her pops

And even today it goes on ......you left, i was a kid, still playing with sticks, never thought much about it, or about you, but i never knew the impact of a father on a childs life until i got older. had to learn alot, so much shit on my own, how the fuck do you change a tire dad? how do i shave my fucking face, how do i pick up the ladies dad?

cuz of you confidence I displaced

where the fuck were you during the cps case,when I lost my job? when I lost my fucking house, when I lost the fucking kids, lost the fucking wife, Almost lost the will to live,

and still you don't know about any of this all the shit that your gran babies been through,

and bitch I'm your son

,should mean something to you.

but hey imma be a better man stand taller than you for my son,

he deserves a father to be his number 1

down with his problems and if he evet had to run to me better believe I'll be there for him

cuz I've learned from the best man, got it from you,

everything that I shouldnt do everything I shouldn't be in a man

so thank you dad ,finally taught me something that I could take with me wherever I go this

knowledge,its intangible,incredible, to know, its the little things that are meaningful but

I said imma be a imma be a imma be a better man stand taller than you for my son,

he deserves a father to be his number 1

down with his problems and if he ever had to run to me better believe I'll be there for him

cuz I've learned from the best man, got it from you,

All the shit I shouldn't do, everything I wouldn't wanna be in a man, so in the end I guess I gotta say thank you for keeping everything to yourself, all your knowledge can't say it wouldn't have helped.oh well..you put this whole "fatherhood"thing on the shelfI said imma be a imma be a imma be a better man stand taller than you for my son,

he deserves a father to be his number 1

down with his problems and if he ever had to run to me better believe I'll be there for him

cuz I've learned from the best man, got it from you,

All the shit I shouldn't do, everything I wouldn't wanna be in a man, so in the end I guess I gotta say thank you for keeping everything to yourself, all your knowledge can't say it wouldn't have helped.oh well..you put this whole "fatherhood"thing on the shelf