Another Chapters Ending

It's hard for me to know,
That finally I have to go
Missing isn't the right word to write, it's a mass more what I feel this time.
Now I'm all alone again, back to the start.
Memories that hurts again, all fall apart.
Another chapter is ending, like every time before.
Everything looks like the same dark misery.
And all what left is a hole deep inside of me.
These chapter is ending, I can not defending.
These chapter will ending.
And it's hard for me to know
That I will never could to show
How I regret the things I made
And  how i fight against the shade
I'm trying to hide again, right from the start
I'm losing my mind again, my heart bricks apart
Another chapter is ending, like everytime before.
Everything looks like the same dark misery.
And all what left is a hole deep inside of me.
These chapter is ending, I can not defending.
These chapter will ending.
And it's hard for me to know
That I will never could to show
How I regret the things I made to you
And  how i fight against the shade
I'm losing my mind again, my heart bricks apart
But
Even all seems that grey, I will stay to fight again.
My hope will never fade away.
And even if hope is just another version of despair,
I hope I will find some repair,
That I can look you in the eyes once again.

Metalcore, Progressiv, Post, Ballade, male