Run It All Away

[Verse 1]
Alarm hit
I ain’t even slept right
Eyes red
Carryin’ the same fight
Phone buzz
Everybody need somethin’
Heart say flee
But the rent keep comin’
Same four walls
Peelin’ at the edges
Bills in a stack
Lookin’ like a death sentence
Scroll till dawn
Numb in the brain
Smilin’ in a mask
While I’m drownin’ in the shame
[Chorus]
I’m so tired, man, I’m so tired
Burned out body, overwired
Every damn day feel like I’m chained
I just wanna run, run it all away
Run it from the pain, from the weight I drag
From the “you’ll be fine” and the fake-ass laughs
If I disappear, tell ’em I was drained
I just wanna run, run it all away
[Verse 2]
Mama call say
“Baby, you a strong one”
But strength feel heavy
When you’re standin’ here alone
Friends got plans
I’m stuck in my head
Couch like quicksand
Pullin’ on my legs
Clock on the wall
Talkin’ in circles
Future in fog
Past in purple
Packin’ my fears
In an old backpack
One more straw
And I might not come back
[Chorus]
I’m so tired, man, I’m so tired
Burned out body, overwired
Every damn day feel like I’m chained
I just wanna run, run it all away
Run it from the calls I don’t wanna take
From the “how you been?” that I gotta fake
If I disappear, tell ’em I was drained
I just wanna run, run it all away
[Bridge]
If I go tonight
Would anybody notice
Or just say “he ghosted”
Scrollin’, lose focus
Talk myself down
From the ledge in my mind
One deep breath
Try to buy more time
[Chorus]
I’m so tired, man, I’m so tired
Burned out body, overwired
Every damn day feel like I’m chained
I just wanna run, run it all away
Run it from the doubt that I can’t explain
From the tight-lipped “fine” when they ask my name
If I disappear, tell ’em I was drained
I just wanna run, run it all away

rap, Moody, late-night hip-hop with swung drums, deep bass, and chilly keys. Verses in an intimate, almost whispered male vocal that builds into a raw, shouted hook. Sparse textures in the verses; hook explodes with stacked doubles, distant octave harmonies, and a filtered synth rising in the background to mirror the panic and release., hip hop