Best of me

[soft vocal register] (Mmmhmmm-oooooooh)

Last year was a roller coaster

Every month A different crash

With twist and turns

No could see but

I had everything Until it was gone

Laughed it off hard, Cried even harder

Heart racing, Head pounding chasing

Sleepless nights Over stressing wasted

Screen-glow on my face

Scrolling through the highs getting my dopamine

Ghost fading memories, leave my heart like broken

The damage it’s taking upon my empathetic soul

Saving all the little lessons

In a crystal chest, locked away to be dealt with later anyway

I’ve been dismissing my feelings

While these emotions are branded in my head

Now I’m staring at the ceiling

Wondering if I’ll ever feel complete

starting with a new slate

While trying to make things ok

This year

I’m gonna be the best version me

Even when I’m breaking

I’ma let you see

Learning how to hold my storms

Not just to hide in the sea

Trying to find the new version of me

(ooh-Yeah!)

20-25

I’m pulling up alive

This year

Ima show you the best version of me

Reaching for air because

my soul cannot bare

Active mind while body screams

Asking “why did that hurt me?”

Not just leaving it behind

I’ll name every little trigger

Talk it out instead of freeze

Let my anger speak in whispers

Let my softness take the lead

Sobered up now while emotions detox clean

I was shutting down the moment

Someone crossed a line

Now I’m saying what I’m feeling

Before it eats my mind

Growing my emotional intelligence

Has not been an easy feat but

Presence and preservation is what keeps me at ease

Which shows the resilience in me

This new year

I found the new version of me

Even when I’m breaking

I’ma let you see

Learning how to hold my storms

Not just to hide in the sea

I am the new version of me

(ooh-Yeah!)

20-26

I’m pulling up alive

This year

I’m show you the best of me

I forgive the me from yesterday

Who only knew to run away

Now I listen when my body shakes

[low vocal register] “You’re safe

You’re safe”

If I fall back into old ways

I won’t drown myself in blame

I’ll just try again the next day

Say my own name like a flame

Just by reminding myself

Take it day by day

Cheers

(Alfie b t n -kisses!)

(Mmmm!)