Tired

I am so tired of fighting 
I am tired 
I am so tired all the time 
I don’t want to die 
But I don’t want to be fucking alive 
I got to work every fucking day 
Alarm goes off in my bed I lay 
Want to be able to take a girl out 
Seems like all they want is clout 
Going to work taking a different route  
Minds on many thoughts I forgot what I was worried about 
Thinking of a life that’s out of my grasp 
Car pulls out in front of me I gasp 
Wasn’t paying attention feel like life’s got me in a trap
Am I the only one that can get out of this funk 
Refuse to stay at home and get drunk 
Staying so silent i might as well be a monk 
Watching movies at the drive in out of my trunk 
Hope this girl comes out hope I didn’t flunk 
I try planning the most perfect dates 
But all these girls do is fucking hate 
When they stand me up all I feel is shame 
I guess i really am to blame 
Used to go to the gym a lot now it’s just not the same 
Getting bigger the stomach has a hell of a weight

Im so tired of fighting 
Im tired 
Im so tired all the time 

Driving home I can feel the eyes dropping 
Got to stop at the store I got to go shopping 
All these red lights I’m tired of stopping 
The gas pedal is getting closer to the floor 
Can’t wait until I am walking in the door
No A C  I worked in the heat all day I wish it was cool
See an old friend from school 
I wouldn’t ask 
man do I have some lore 
When I was a kid dreamed I could soar 
Always strived for more 
To me I’m just bored 
One day I hope I’m driving home to my wife 
But as of right now life says what for 

Im so tired of fighting 
Im tired 
Im so tired all the time 

I’ll keep pushing until I die 
I am glad I’m alive 

Rap, heavy rock, emo, male, raspy voice