Tired

I am so tired of fighting

I am tired

I am so tired all the time

I don’t want to die

But I don’t want to be fucking alive

I got to work every fucking day

Alarm goes off in my bed I lay

Want to be able to take a girl out

Seems like all they want is clout

Going to work taking a different route

Minds on many thoughts I forgot what I was worried about

Thinking of a life that’s out of my grasp

Car pulls out in front of me I gasp

Wasn’t paying attention feel like life’s got me in a trap

Am I the only one that can get out of this funk

Refuse to stay at home and get drunk

Staying so silent i might as well be a monk

Watching movies at the drive in out of my trunk

Hope this girl comes out hope I didn’t flunk

I try planning the most perfect dates

But all these girls do is fucking hate

When they stand me up all I feel is shame

I guess i really am to blame

Used to go to the gym a lot now it’s just not the same

Getting bigger the stomach has a hell of a weight

Im so tired of fighting

Im tired

Im so tired all the time

Driving home I can feel the eyes dropping

Got to stop at the store I got to go shopping

All these red lights I’m tired of stopping

The gas pedal is getting closer to the floor

Can’t wait until I am walking in the door

No A C I worked in the heat all day I wish it was cool

See an old friend from school

I wouldn’t ask

man do I have some lore

When I was a kid dreamed I could soar

Always strived for more

To me I’m just bored

One day I hope I’m driving home to my wife

But as of right now life says what for

Im so tired of fighting

Im tired

Im so tired all the time

I’ll keep pushing until I die

I am glad I’m alive