Skeletons

Everyone’s got something within. 
I got bones underneath my skin. 
Every man’s got a skeleton in his house. They’ve got skeletons in their closet screaming to get out. 
They keep living in fear, scared that they’re going to be found. 
But I’m not scared of what you find, because I am so tired of trying to hide this ugliness that lies inside. 
It’s time for me to beautiful and it’s my time to shine. 
So you go ahead, start digging, you’ll be amazed at what you find. 
I ain’t gotta keep looking over my shoulder no more.  
It ain’t gonna be like it was before, lying in my self-pity, waiting for something to hit me; digging myself into a bottomless pit, putting myself through unnecessary bullshit, being lazy and passing the time with the bottle thinking that my worries will go away with one more swallow with every drink I took I just became more hollow. 
After someone else’s footsteps I was trying to follow.
 Drowning in my own pain thinking if I stuff it down deep enough it’ll all go away. I
t was self-inflicted and now I’m convicted of what happened that day. 
I fell in love with her when I shouldn’t have. 
I spread her ashes and I kept dwelling in the past. 
I let no one close and I kept thinking that it was my fault for her overdose. 
It was the pain I couldn’t take. 
My memories keep crashing down on me like those waves. 
The wrong hearts I kept seeking after the wrong things I thought that mattered too many things that came into factor. 
That could’ve led up to my death. 
Got caught up in my mess. 
I just got so screwed up, that everything eventually blew up; and none of this I can fix and so many people got caught up in the mix and now I have to make amends and get forgiveness from my so called friends and appreciate what I have don’t worry about what’s going to last and stay out of my past. It’s my time to learn from my sobriety and quit trying to run from the pain. I got nothing left to lose and everything to gain. So go ahead start digging in my closet and tell me what you see because I am so sick and tired of hiding what’s inside of me.

blues, delta blues, trap, beat, deep 808, fast rap, piano with high hats, intense rap delivery, gritty male voice