““Dead Inside (But I’m Still Here)”

I wake up with shadows wrapped around my chest

Heart’s still beating but it feels like death

Tried to scream but no one hears the sound

God, I’m drowning but I can’t go down

Mirror shows a ghost I don’t recognize

Eyes dry — no tears left to cry

Addicted to silence, addicted to shame

Every high feels like hell in my veins

I fall, I crawl, I beg, I fight

I pray to feel just once tonight

But even in the dark and fear

A voice keeps whisperin’: “You’re still here”

Dead inside, but I ain’t gone

Lost my faith, but I hold on

I’ve cursed my name and bled alone

But scars don’t lie — they’ve made me strong

I’m a war-torn soul in a battlefield mind

A broken man chasing back his light

So I’ll scream to the sky, through the ache and the fear:

“I’m still alive… I’m still here”

I’ve buried my joy, slept with regret

Made love to lies I can’t forget

Porn-fed poison and fake control

Each climax carving holes in my soul

But I ain’t a slave to my worst days

Even sinners can still be saved

I’m sick of chains and hollow thrills

It’s time to heal or time to kill

I fall, I crawl, I beg, I fight

I stare death down every night

But from the grave of all these years

I rise again — I’m still here

Dead inside, but I ain’t gone

Lost my way, but I press on

Cried to God through blood and bone

But even silence means I’m known

I’m a fractured voice with a lion’s roar

A prodigal heart that won’t be ignored

So I’ll scream to the dark, through my doubt and my tears:

“I’m still alive… I’m still here”

[Bridge] (spoken or whispered with weight)

You don’t need to feel to have faith

You don’t need to see to walk straight

Some wars are won just by stayin’

And tonight… I’m still stayin’

Dead inside, but I won’t quit

Hurt too long, but I’m made for this

Hell’s tried to claim me every year

But I’m not done — I’m still here