Lost at sea

Thrown over board 
Drowning in my own mind 
Swallowed whole 
By my own thoughts 
Down down I go again 
Oh Jah oh Jah 
Im going down Again 
Im in the belly of the beast
I can’t believe I’m here again
Well I can believe I’m here again 
Because I’m always here 
Time and time again I lose my way 
When things are going great and everything seems okay 
And when I think the coast is clear 
I slip and fall 
I slip and I fall 
Instead of praying 
Praying for forgiveness and Jehovahs assistance I look around 
To make sure no one saw me fall
But I forget time and time again to look up 
But I look down in shame 
Hoping to find someone to blame 
Because blaming everyone else but me feels a little better but I feel bitter
I know in my head what I have to do
But my pride and heart aren’t willing 
So on ago 
So confused 
That I fail to realize I’m in the opposite direction 
Being pulled by the wind of the world’s perfection 
Oh Jehovah please, I’m done doing it my way, please quiet the storm 
Show me the way, please show me the way 
Oh I need you, spent my life with your compass in my hand 
After years of fighting tides higher than the heavens 
Here I am