Roaches & Sunlight

(Soft synths, distant children’s choir, vinyl crackle)

La, la, la, la-la-la-la-la-la

La-la-la, la, la, la-la-la-la-la-la

(whisper)

Sure, it’s a calming notion…

…but it’s a lie.

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(Dark, tight rap delivery)

I’m a big killer, real go-getter, trendsetter

Blood on my sweater, name on the wall — remember

Psycho drama queen, crown full of enemies

You ain’t the lord of shit, don’t talk divinity

Beelzebub breath, feel the bugs on my skin

Fly on the wall, watch me rot from within

Knife in my hand, but the war’s in my head

Cut through the doubt, hear it screamin’, “you’re dead”

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(Beat strips back, distorted vocal layer)

Oh my God, it happens all the time

They drop their eggs, plant fear inside my mind

Dig too deep, now the hole don’t sleep

Every thought got teeth when it crawls on me

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(Melodic, emotional — Porter-style lift)

Sure, it’s a calming notion, perpetual in motion

But I don’t need the comfort of your lies

I’ve seen the ending, there’s no ascending

Still I’m searching for a beam of light

Roaches in my mind, clingin’ to my frontal lobe

Hard to breathe when the feeling re-approaches

I’m sure there won’t always be sunshine

But right now, I’m just tryna survive

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(Aggressive bounce returns)

Need a hit just to shake this away

No delay, no opinion, get out my face

Built this life by myself, no grace

Didn’t come here to play, I came to erase

Brain is a temple, I treat her gentle

But these roaches cannibal, eatin’ my mental

Every bite leave a mark, detrimental

Now the scars got a pulse — existential

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(Lower register, almost spoken)

They told me death would stare me down

But I see windows in the ground

Pull the lever, live forever —

Would it matter now?