[Intro ]
(Soft synths, distant children’s choir, vinyl crackle)
La, la, la, la-la-la-la-la-la
La-la-la, la, la, la-la-la-la-la-la
(whisper)
Sure, it’s a calming notion…
…but it’s a lie.
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[Verse 1]
(Dark, tight rap delivery)
I’m a big killer, real go-getter, trendsetter
Blood on my sweater, name on the wall — remember
Psycho drama queen, crown full of enemies
You ain’t the lord of shit, don’t talk divinity
Beelzebub breath, feel the bugs on my skin
Fly on the wall, watch me rot from within
Knife in my hand, but the war’s in my head
Cut through the doubt, hear it screamin’, “you’re dead”
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[Pre-Chorus]
(Beat strips back, distorted vocal layer)
Oh my God, it happens all the time
They drop their eggs, plant fear inside my mind
Dig too deep, now the hole don’t sleep
Every thought got teeth when it crawls on me
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[Chorus]
(Melodic, emotional — Porter-style lift)
Sure, it’s a calming notion, perpetual in motion
But I don’t need the comfort of your lies
I’ve seen the ending, there’s no ascending
Still I’m searching for a beam of light
Roaches in my mind, clingin’ to my frontal lobe
Hard to breathe when the feeling re-approaches
I’m sure there won’t always be sunshine
But right now, I’m just tryna survive
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[Verse 2]
(Aggressive bounce returns)
Need a hit just to shake this away
No delay, no opinion, get out my face
Built this life by myself, no grace
Didn’t come here to play, I came to erase
Brain is a temple, I treat her gentle
But these roaches cannibal, eatin’ my mental
Every bite leave a mark, detrimental
Now the scars got a pulse — existential
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[Pre-Chorus 2]
(Lower register, almost spoken)
They told me death would stare me down
But I see windows in the ground
Pull the lever, live forever —
Would it matter now?