Not A Win

I never wanted a trophy, never wanted a prize

Didn’t step into this with a war in my eyes

It was never a battle, never a game

Just a love that I swore I would fight to save

But silence cuts deeper than words ever could

And I stood at the door longer than I should

I begged for a truth, not a victory sign

But I guess walking away means the win is mine

But it’s not a win, not a celebration

Just an ending wrapped in hesitation

I didn’t want to be the one still standing

I just wanted us to find some understanding

If letting go means I take the title

Then crown me the king of what’s gone idle

But to me, that crown means nothin’

‘Cause this was never something to win

I counted the days, hoping you’d change your mind

But you locked up your heart, and left me outside

I gave you truth, thought you’d give me the same

But I guess walking away means I’ll take the pain

But silence cuts deeper than words ever could

And I stood at the door longer than I should

I begged for a truth, not a victory sign

But I guess walking away means the win is mine

But it’s not a win, not a celebration

Just an ending wrapped in hesitation

I didn’t want to be the one still standing

I just wanted us to find some understanding

If letting go means I take the title

Then crown me the king of what’s gone idle

But to me, that crown means nothin’

‘Cause this was never something to win

Take your silence, take your closure

If that’s what you need, I’ll leave us in peace

But don’t mistake my silence for composure

‘Cause this isn’t how I wanted to be free

It’s not a win, not a celebration

Just an ending I never wanted to face

I didn’t want to be the one still standing

I just wanted us to find a way

If letting go means I take the title

Then call me the champion of what could’ve been

But I don’t want the crown, don’t want the glory

‘Cause this was never something to win

I never wanted a trophy, never wanted a prize

I just wanted a friend who would stand by my side