[Verse 1]
You never asked what I was thinking
Every word I said
Just sounded like I’m bitching
Rolled eyes
Like a script you’d seen a million times
I shut my mouth
Let my teeth grind
You say you love me
Arms go through me like a ghost
Your hug hits my shoulders
But it never hits my bones
In your hands I’m a stranger
(It’s “who’s this?” under your breath)
You’re smiling in the hallway
But I’m dying on the steps
[Chorus]
You raised a monster in your living room
Fed it every time you called me “too much”
You built these walls inside my head
Now I can’t feel your touch
Getting hit stopped hurting
I was numb before the bruises bloomed
You were looking for a problem
So I became your monster in the living room
[Verse 2]
I learned to laugh
At the worst parts of my story
Turn my strongest demon
To a cheap little joke for you
You say “you’re so dramatic”
Like that makes it all untrue
I started doubting
Every crack in me was proof
Now I flinch at kindness
More than I flinched at your hand
Silence feels safer
Than trying to make you understand
You ask why I’m distant
Like the past just disappeared
But every “you’re too sensitive”
Is tattooed in my ears
[Chorus]
You raised a monster in your living room
Fed it every time you called me “too much”
You built these walls inside my head
Now I can’t feel your touch
Getting hit stopped hurting
I was numb before the bruises bloomed
You were looking for a problem
So I became your monster in the living room
[Bridge]
If I scream my side of it
You’ll just say I’m loud again
If I whisper how it felt
You’ll say I’m making storms from wind
So I pack my bags in secret
In the backrooms of my mind
I’m not your monster
I’m the kid you left behind
[Chorus]
You raised a monster in your living room
Fed it every time you called me “too much”
You built these walls inside my head
Now I can’t feel your touch
Getting hit stopped hurting
I was numb before the bruises bloomed
You were looking for a problem
I was begging you to see me
Now you’re staring at the doorway
As I drag your monster out the room