I just Panic

Panic 
I tried to fall in love so many times Now
I just Panic when some tries to love me
So it's my fault because baby
I know that and I'm sorry 
I'm scared I know I shouldn't be
Trying to feel safe but I couldn't 
When you're telling everything's ok
Making me Panic 
I don't know why I do
I just Panic 
I'm trying my best to fall in love with who I am now
Wishing I was that person before so I could love you
But I know I'm not
That person was so innocent 
But my heart got taken advantage of so many times now 
With how defenseless I was trusting everyone 
Thinking the world was a good place 
And no evil could find me
How wrong i was
Only if I knew how scary the world is 
I wouldn't had became this way
I would've known all the evil coming my way
But it was too late 
I just Panic
Trying my best to love
I'm sorry I'm not who I was
Even when I hope I could change the times 
I know what is done can't be undone
I just Panic because I'm a coward 
So I'm sorry
I know it been some time now 
Why are you leading me on 
I loved you and you made me look like a fool
Sleeping with other girls when I gave you my heart 
Why is this happening 
I told you I never loved again if this didn't work 
How much I was a fool 
Falling in love with you
Always making excuses when I'm trying to be in your arms 
Who are you with baby 
I know it's not with me
What bed did you wake up this morning 
Who are you loving other than me
I just Panic Trying to love so I'm sorry 
I hate who I am now 
All because the pain brought me here
I didn't ask for it but it still happened 
Acting nonchalant and I don't even know what that means 
I just Panic 
I told you this is the last time I'm falling
How much I was a fool
Gave you my heart and you made it into two 
Why can't I just commit to someone 
Trying so hard to love again 
But thinking I'm a fool now
Hating myself for who I am
And it be all okay
You need to let it go
Don't let it have a hold on you

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