[Dark rave vamp][trap dnb] [Hook][haunting female] My scars that'll Be with me through all'a my battles where Im trapped & blind Its dark I cant find light No Dad & No mum Nobody to come Show me the way to my Lighthouse Its on me to make it So please Try to be patient [Gritty female trap dnb rap][verse 1] I believe The nasty things people always say to me They replay all day In my head I wish I was dead But Im stuck in a bed Suffering all'a these mental disabilities & my demons making up stories For me That remind me Im not good enough & I'm too much to love Its all my fault & I'm to blame Im the reason my mum gave me away The war I fight everyday inside Not an excuse its some insight why I cant always see When I treat You badly My wires are slightly wired Differently Most people learned to create A pathway that takes you straight Back to your home base your inner lighthouse place 9 months inside your mother she was your guide when you bonded after Which forged your Instinctual sense Now & forever is your reference Of what & who is safe Anytime & Always [Hook] [raspy female rap verse] 10 days old my new family Came & adopted me Disconnected from my guide Made my lighthouse harder to find A little baby No idea of safety instincts now linked to always think I need survival mode on constantly 24/7 High alert Gotta be so I dont get hurt Now my Hypervigilance Is my resilience Always lookin round me body's screamin so loudly danger! WATCH OUT Then logic kicks in & says I'm home, safe & sound I gotta re-route Whats felt & not trust it shut down intuition & trust logic When you think thats not your mum or dad You dont understand Cos they arent the 1 who had You growing inside The smell isnt right & You look nothin alike HER! she smells that way & you both look the same But shes Always leaving me I gotta stay believing My reality & i am safe here with my family. Suddenly Outta nowhere There was a boy here We looked quite similar He seemed so familiar half brother Same mother but different father I felt more accepted Less likely to get rejected Now when people stare at me sayin how neat Bein adopted must be He'll be here & understand the damage & grief inside me Cos I always have to be grateful Not able To grieve the life Id never meet Noone understood Or ever could So I wanted my Brother & me To be like a real family [Half tempo] But Sadly He'd been in foster care & he learned stuff there Then he taught me things a 4 year old shouldnt see It ruined me & He was supposed to be my safety But now hes my bodys enemy! & I couldnt tell any body Cos he said that he would choke me He showed me & proved he wasnt joking 3 decades I stayed quiet & Now not gonna hide it [Hook] [Bridge][haunting] I need to find out The way to my lighthouse So I stop triggering my shit Thats makin it Way Harder to navigate & regulate the empty space Thats supposed to be safe & grounding Not an empty surrounding When I found it Lights were out But it was mine My Dark Lighthouse

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