Moderational Drug

I wanna admit something that's hard to admit

Cos people think that anyone associated with it

Are all the same playing the game and should hang their heads down in shame

But I wanna speak on behalf of the few

People that could use this to

I'd give anything

And thats why I did one thing

That other people frown upon

Turns out it's the one thing that helped me a tonne

And even though it's hard

To admit and let down my guard

I have to share

Incase it helps others out there

Feel better

Get up and out of bed

Cos without this 'bad thing'

I'm just constantly stuck in my head

I dont use it to escape

Infact I use it to face

My demons inside

The ones that cause me pain and make me hide

How? You might ask well

Because ive suffered so much hell

So my mental health has fooled my mind

Into thinking I'm the broken kind

And my body shuts down

I sleep never get out of my night gown

So sleepy and weepy and an emotional heapy

I have no energy left to try and work on me

I'd give anything for one day if I could only

Pain in silence every day

Listening to the hurtful shit others say

Like oh she's just faking it she's actually fine

She exaggerates a hypochondriac does it all the time

She's just lazy watch out it's just manipulation

So she gets what she wants in every situation

Cos that's how she gets away with it all

Don't be a fool don't fall

It makes me sad

That people think I'm that bad

That I'd pretend to be sick

Yea cool miss out on life to play this shit trick

Where I stay in bed and cry and cry Cos I can't don't anything else but lie

Here and wish I was dead

No it's all just in my head

The thing that gave me a break

From all the pain and helped me make

The choice to start the healing

Look into reasons why I was feeling

So sick in so much pain hidden unseen

It's scary to say it but it was methamphetamine

Just like everything out there

In moderation taken with care

Certain things can be helpful for some

Just like sugar and alcohol can become

Things that people over take and abuse

And then need to be treated and made to lose

Their addictive habit cos it's hurting you

It's not beneficial anymore

To take that thing you took before

Like running too much and too hard core

Balance temperance it's what self control is for

Those who turn into a crack head

Usually stay awake too long and don't go to bed

They starve their bodies from food and drink

It's not actually the drug it's not what you think

They'll be using to run from their shit

But actually it just heightens it

Turns them all paranoid

Makes them face what they're trying to avoid and thats why it could actually be good

If only it was used the way that it should

It would actially help some people I know it would

Cos it truly helped in my life feel understood

Finally... I found something that could