(Verse 1)
You fucked me up in ways I can’t explain
Left your fingerprints all over my brain
I replay every word like a sick rerun
Yeah, loving you was my favorite kind of dumb
I gave you everything, you gave me doubt
Turned my whole damn world inside out
Now I’m staring at a screen with your name
Typing shit I won’t send anyway
(Pre-Chorus)
I was addicted to your chaos, your lies
Now I’m detoxing, yeah it fucking bites
But I’d rather feel this pain than fake
Another second for your sake
(Chorus)
Yeah, I’m a mess but I’m alive
Crying at 2AM but I’ll survive
You broke me down, yeah you did it right
But I’m still here, I still fight
Screaming “fuck you” to the ceiling
While my heart’s still barely healing
I lost you and it hurts like hell
But I’m crawling out of your spell
(Verse 2)
You don’t get to come back like nothing changed
Like I didn’t almost go insane
I was drowning while you played it cool
Now I see it—you’re just fucking cruel
I used to beg you just to care
Now I don’t even want you there
Funny how the tables turn
Now I’m the one you’ll never earn
(Pre-Chorus)
I burned every memory we made
Yeah, I’m done being your fucking mistake
You don’t get to live in my head rent-free
I’m taking back what’s left of me
(Chorus)
Yeah, I’m a mess but I’m alive
Crying at 2AM but I’ll survive
You broke me down, yeah you did it right
But I’m still here, I still fight
Screaming “fuck you” to the ceiling
While my heart’s still barely healing
I lost you and it hurts like hell
But I’m crawling out of your spell
(Bridge)
Maybe I loved you more than I loved myself
That’s a kind of pain I wouldn’t wish on anyone else
But now I’m rebuilding, piece by piece
And damn… it finally feels like release
(Breakdown)
No more texts I shouldn’t send
No more hoping this shit mends
No more you inside my veins
I’m done dancing in your chains
(Final Chorus)
Yeah, I’m still a mess but I’m alive
And I don’t need you to survive
You broke me once, won’t break me twice
Yeah, I paid your fucking price
Now I’m laughing at the feeling
All the damage slowly healing
I lost you—yeah, that’s the truth
But I finally found my proof
(Outro)
You were a lesson dressed like love
Now I’m rising from the mud
And even if it still hurts like hell…
I’m healing. And I can tell.