Still Awake

Verse 1
It’s late again and the house is quiet
Everyone’s sleeping except my mind
I keep staring at the same four walls
Trying to convince myself I’m fine

My body’s tired but I don’t feel rested
I close my eyes and I’m back there again
Your voice, your face, the things you said
Like none of it ever really ends

Pre-Chorus
I tell myself it’s over now
But my nervous system doesn’t listen

Chorus
I can’t sleep
And when I do
I relive everything you put me through
Every lie, every truth
Every moment plays on loop

I wake up with my heart in my throat
Trying to remember I’m safe at home
I can’t sleep
And when I do
It’s always you

Verse 2
I replay conversations that already happened
Rewrite endings that never came
I see the signs I ignored before
I say your name then swallow the pain

I don’t miss you, I miss who I thought you were
I miss believing I was okay
Now I lie here holding my breath
Counting hours until the day

Pre-Chorus
I tell myself I’m stronger now
But my body still remembers

Chorus
I can’t sleep
And when I do
I relive everything you put me through
Your manipulation, your control
Running circles in my soul

I wake up shaking, clenching my jaw
Trying to breathe through everything I saw
I can’t sleep
And when I do
It’s always you

Bridge
I lie here staring into the dark
Telling myself I survived
I don’t want revenge
I just want peace
I just want my life

I don’t miss you
I miss feeling safe

Chorus
I can’t sleep
But I’m still here
Still choosing to survive

You don’t own my rest
You don’t own my peace
You don’t get to live
Inside of me

I can’t sleep
But I’m healing too


Outro
One day I’ll close my eyes
And you won’t be there

( not forever… not forever…)

female,alt rock/emo,electro pop/edm,synth undertones,technic,emotional,strong vocals,fast paced,beats,808s,dubstep