Colder within

I laugh when it hurts just to feel like I’m here

Act like I’m fine, but I’m numb in the mirror

Scroll past my own reflection like a stranger

Say “I’m good” ‘cause I’m scared of the real answer

I got too good at pretending

Holdin’ it in, never venting

Got people who say they love me

But don’t notice when I’m ending

I sit in my room, let the silence talk

Not tryin to die, but the my fears just walk

Outta reach—like everyone else

So I fake it and lie to myself

And if I said I’m not okay

Would you listen or walk away?

Take the fade, turn my head to the blame?

Where could I change it for them to comprehend.

I laugh when it hurts just to feel like I’m here

Act like I’m fine, but I’m numb in the mirror

Scroll past my own reflection like a stranger

Say “I’m good” ‘cause I’m scared of the answer

facing my demons, regret is a disillusion

I don’t need a fix, I just need a break

Sleepin' through pain like it’s part of my stay

text left on read, but I'm still there.

Not ‘cause im rare—just wish someone cared

I'm tired of tryna sound deep for someone else to repost

This ain’t for likes, it’s just what hurts most

Don’t wanna die, but I don’t wanna feel

And that’s the part nobody gets is real

I don't wanna try to find peace on someone else's shelf

being me, is truly fucking with my head more.

I never asked to be the Real one

Never asked to be alone when the dark comes

But here I am, playin’ pretend

Actin’ like I had any friends

cuz people come, and people go.

but who's there for you when you are feeling better on a edge.

I laugh when it hurts just to feel like I’m here

Smilin’ like I’m not drowning in fear

They ask how I am, and I lie every time

But it’s easier than sayin’ “I’m not fine”

why lie to someone I've never met.