Still kinda here

Mm…

Yeah…

I’m still here.

I’ve been staring at the ceiling again,

Counting cracks like they’re friends.

Every plan I swore I’d make

Got pushed to some other day.

I tell people I’m alright,

Say it quick so they don’t ask why.

Truth is I don’t feel broken,

I just don’t feel whole tonight.

I don’t cry like I used to,

I don’t scream, I just sigh.

I keep everything moving

So I don’t fall behind.

I’m still kinda here, still kinda trying,

Still waking up, still surviving.

I don’t know where I’m headed now,

But I haven’t burned it down.

I’m still kinda here, still breathing slow,

Still carrying things I don’t show.

If this is all I am right now,

I guess it’s enough somehow.

Mm-mm…

Yeah, it’s enough.

I walk past lights on empty streets,

Everyone’s got somewhere to be.

I blend in with the passing sound,

Just another face, another round.

I thought I’d have it figured out,

Thought I’d feel more different by now.

But maybe growth is quieter

Than the way they talk about.

I don’t need to win tonight,

I don’t need a perfect view.

If I made it through the day,

That’s something too.

I’m still kinda here, still kinda trying,

Still waking up, still surviving.

I don’t know where I’m headed now,

But I haven’t burned it down.

I’m still kinda here, still breathing slow,

Still carrying things I don’t show.

If this is all I am right now,

I guess it’s enough somehow.

Maybe I’m not falling apart,

Maybe I’m just in between.

Not who I was, not who I’ll be,

Just learning how to stay on my feet.

I’m still kinda here, hear my heartbeat,

Even on days when it’s hard to breathe.

I don’t need to shine or prove,

I just need to make it through.

I’m still kinda here, that’s my truth,

Still hoping something feels new.

If tomorrow asks for more,

I’ll answer when I’m sure.

Mm…

Still here.

That counts.