Limerence

(Piano intro)

You entered my life so quietly

I almost mistook it for coincidence

Like rain entering an open window

Slowly enough

That the room doesn’t notice it changing

Now everything carries your atmosphere

The books beside my bed

The cold side of the sink at night

Even my thoughts seem arranged around you

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I think some people arrive

Not as love

But as recognition

As if the body has been waiting years

For someone it has never met

And suddenly your sadness feels familiar to me

More familiar sometimes

Than my own happiness

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There’s a kind of loneliness

That only becomes visible after intimacy

After someone learns

The hidden geography of you

The quiet rituals

The fears you disguise as personality

And once another person sees you that deeply

You never return entirely to yourself again

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You touch my arm absentmindedly while speaking

And continue your sentence normally

But my entire inner world changes temperature

I spend hours afterward

Trying to understand

Why tenderness feels so catastrophic

Inside me

Why being known gently

Feels almost unbearable

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Maybe love is just attention prolonged long enough

To become devotion

Maybe devotion becomes dangerous

The moment another person

Begins shaping your interior life

Now I hear your voice

Inside ordinary silence

And sometimes I miss you

While you’re still beside me

Because nothing beautiful

Ever feels fully survivable

And maybe that’s why I keep loving you

With the quiet desperation

Of someone trying to hold water

Inside their hands

..And I think..

If I loved you less..

..Maybe I could sleep