Before the Altar (InfiniteHymns)

I came in carrying the weight again

All the things I said I’d give to You

I told myself I’d be stronger this time

But the night still knows my truth

I wear my worries like a second name

Every fear stitched into my breath

I try to pray, but my mind won’t rest

So I kneel with everything left

I’ve learned how to smile through the pain

Learned how to say “I’m fine”

But You see through every mask I wear

You hear the words I can’t find

I don’t need the right words

I don’t need to pretend

You already know my heart

Before I speak again

So here I am before the altar

With all the weight I couldn’t hide

Every fear, every failure

Every tear I swallowed inside

I don’t have answers

I don’t have control

I just have a weary heart

And a desperate soul

So I lay it all down

Every burden I carry

I’m not strong enough

But You are ready

Here I am before the altar

Letting go

I replay every broken moment

Every prayer that felt unanswered

I wonder if You hear me still

Or if I’ve gone too far to matter

But the cross reminds me otherwise

Love written in scarlet grace

You didn’t wait for me to clean myself

You met me in this place

I don’t come with polished faith

I don’t come with perfect trust

I just come with what I have left

And place it in Your hands, God

You don’t ask me to be fearless

You don’t ask me to be whole

You just ask me to come as I am

And let You take control

So here I am before the altar

With my knees on holy ground

Every doubt, every question

Every hope that let me down

I don’t have strength

I don’t have plans

I just need Your presence

To hold my hands

So I lay it all down

Every burden I carry

I’m not strong enough

But You are steady

Here I am before the altar

Letting go

If I could fix myself

I wouldn’t need grace

If I could heal my heart

I wouldn’t need faith

But every time I try

I end up here again

Right where mercy begins

Take the weight I wasn’t built to bear

Take the fears I’ve kept inside

Take the lies that say I’m on my own

Take the nights I barely survived

I don’t want to walk away the same

I don’t want to carry this home

I came here searching for relief

And I found it at Your throne

I leave my shame

I leave my pride

I leave my past

At the foot of the cross tonight

I leave my fear

I leave my doubt

I lift my hands

And let it out

So here I am before the altar

Not because I’m strong or brave

But because You never turned me away

When I came broken, when I came afraid

I don’t need answers

I don’t need to know

I just need You

And that’s enough to go

So I lay it all down

Every burden I carry

I walked in heavy

But I’m leaving lighter

Here I am before the altar

Letting go

I came in burdened

I leave restored

I laid it down

And You took it all

Here I am

Before the altar