Still Here, Somehow

Mm…

Yeah…

I don’t know why I stayed.

3 a.m. on my phone again,

Scrolling through the things we were.

Your name feels heavier than before,

Like it knows what it did to me.

I say I’m fine, but I don’t mean it,

I just don’t wanna talk it through.

Every room feels too quiet now,

Even when I’m next to you.

I don’t miss you like I used to,

But I still feel you when I breathe.

It’s like loving you left a mark

That won’t stop following me.

I’m still here, somehow,

Even when I said I’d leave.

Heart feels light but it still breaks

Every time you speak.

I don’t ask for you now,

I don’t beg you to stay.

I’m still here, somehow,

Just letting the feeling fade.

Mm-mm…

Yeah…

Somehow…

You look different in the dark,

Or maybe I finally see.

We talk like nothing ever hurt,

Like history doesn’t bleed.

I learned how to smile halfway,

Learned how to look okay.

But every joke feels paper-thin

When your eyes won’t look my way.

I don’t hate you, I don’t blame you,

I just wish it didn’t last.

Some love stays too long inside

Even when it’s past.

I’m still here, somehow,

Standing in the in-between.

Not the boy you used to want,

Not who I thought I’d be.

I don’t ask for closure now,

I don’t need you to explain.

I’m still here, somehow,

Learning how to feel the pain.

If I leave, would you notice?

If I fade, would you care?

Or am I just a quiet phase

You forgot was there?

I’m still here, somehow,

Even when I shut it down.

Trying not to feel too much,

Trying not to drown.

If this love was all I get,

I guess that’s okay.

I’m still here, somehow,

Letting you drift away.

Mm…

Yeah…

Somehow.