DE-Spite me2

I used to give-in just to make things easier.

Now I just ghost before the full send.

Maybe I’ve changed—

Fuck 'em.

I just finally stopped shrinking

for people that wanna make me feel smaller.

They played games,

I memorized the script.

Now I smile like a trigger

and talk like an auctioneer.

Fast and full of regret.

Don’t say I’m distant—

say I’m done.

You don’t lose people like me

Before pushing them to come undone.

DE-spite me.

You built this version.

You loved it,

then hated the burden.

I gave,

you took,

I broke,

you booked—

Now I don’t bleed.

I burn and repeat.

I’ve been called cold

by hands that froze me.

They miss the old me

but never chose me.

They say I’m the problem—

nah.

I’m just awake.

Learned to taste lies

in every “your great..”

I still got love

but it’s locked in a box

with a label that reads:

I tried.

God, I tried.

To stay myself.

To stay kind.

But kind gets eaten

by teeth in disguise—

chewed up and spit out

where my trust used to lie.

They didn’t want me happy—

They wanted me harmless.

But I kept my heart,

and now it’s heartless.

I built this without violence.

I own my shame.

You de-spite me?

Then remember my name.

DE-spite me—

I rose from deceit.

thought I’d break?

cash in them receipts.

Now I take my time.

You don’t deserve this

version of me in time.

This ain’t numb.

It’s protection.

This ain’t hate.

It’s correction.

You didn’t ruin me.

You just rewrote the tone.

Now I walk through fire

And call it home.