Playing Pretend

(Verse 1)
I’m at a quarter of life and counting down the days
Everyone's got wedding bells and baby names
I'm still sleeping in on Sunday morning
While they're picking out engagement rings
Twenty-three feels like I'm seventeen
Watching everyone live out their dreams
Career paths and mortgage payments
I'm still figuring out what my name is

(Chorus)
Am I still playing pretend?
While all my friends find their happy end
I'm lost somewhere between
A child's dream and what life really means
Maybe I'm not ready for forever
Maybe I'm not built for settling down
I'm lost but still trying
To figure out who I am right now

(Verse 2)
Instagram feeds full of couple shots
I'm double-tapping from my parking lot
Coffee dates turn into baby showers
I'm counting minutes, they're counting hours
Till their next milestone, next big thing
They're buying houses, I'm buying time
Wondering when I'll get my life in line

(Chorus)
Am I still playing pretend?
While all my friends find their happy end
I'm lost somewhere between
A child's dream and what life really means
Maybe I'm not ready for forever
Maybe I'm not built for settling down
I'm lost but still trying
To figure out who I am right now

(Outro)
Save the dates keep filling up my fridge
They're crossing over, I'm stuck on this bridge
Left behind in yesterday
This growing pain won't fade away

Pop rock sad, female vocals