Remanicing

Back when I was younger, I ain’t know what I had
Everything felt heavy, moving life half-mad
You was there before the scars, before I moved guarded
Before I learned how to act like I wasn’t soft-hearted

We ain’t start perfect, never claimed that
Both of us learning where love was at
I was chasing survival, you wanted stability
I was living by instinct, you saw possibility

You knew my background, knew how I was raised
Knew I kept my feelings locked in a cage
I ain’t cheat you for thrills, I cheated myself
By not knowing how to ask nobody for help

We had moments that felt like forever
Then days where the tension stayed heavy
I’d go quiet instead of explaining the truth
And every silence just pushed me from you

Looking back now, I see it clear
I was scared of the future, not scared of fear
You wanted growth, I was stuck on pride
Didn’t know how to balance love and survival at the time

I don’t carry anger, I carry respect
Some people ain’t losses, they lessons you kept
You showed me patience before I knew my worth
Before the world hardened the way that it hurt

If I speak your name, it ain’t with regret
Just acknowledging chapters I can’t forget
We both moved on, that’s how life goes
But you was real in a time when I needed that most

So here’s to the past, no bitterness said
Just truth from a man who matured with the years
You weren’t meant to stay, and that’s okay
You still shaped the way I love to this day.

Up drill rap with ghetto black beat with killer drops and strong beat. Rap but not cliche. Only struggle pain music