I know it's going to happen

Seems like it's going to be another one of those days when you don't want to get up everything's in a haze I reach in my pocket and I ain't got no change but I need a cold beer before I go insane I got all these little worries in my mind I got always to the stories that just keep me worried seems like no matter how hard I try I just keep getting kicked back down and punched in my side I promise you I tried and tried but it sounds like I need to get a gun and say good night but instead I fight and fight with all my might I try to stay away from the light but it seems like one of these days I might just have to turn out the light say good night give up the fight I know we all got problems and I know we are struggle everybody got something probably worth even double I don't know what to do when my only talent is a chemical imbalance mess around and f***** up and got PTSD I don't even know what that means but can you please help me when I'm begging on my knees blackout drunk has a kite trying to catch a flight but all it seems I know is how to get knocked back down in this hole I know we all got problems that's true we know everybody got something to complain about like everyone got an a****** but don't look at me for my faults and all the wrong I've done I'm trying to change my life but I still don't know what's going on the struggle is real is real as could be just don't hate me for being me I'm just a simple little juggalo you already know I yell out whoop whoop as I look into the sky wishing that I could be some other guy but this is who I am I guess it's till the end I can't pretend that I won't f****** again but it seems like nowadays everybody's pretend here I Go again reaching in my pocket to see if I got any fans but all I get back is an empty hand I had a little money but I blew it again you see what I do when I play them gambling games again I tell myself everyday you ain't got that lucky hand but I'll come up one day I promise you that's true I just hope I stay up long enough to show you that I'm true I'm already used to being kicked back in the whole so forgive me if I come off like an asshole like a asshole like a asshole 

rap, metal, murder rap