What is this?!

(what is this?)

I'm floating and sinking into an abyss

Caught in a mist

All that I had to do was take a shot and I missed

Now I just sit back and wish

And now I'm waiting for better days

When they come I'll mess up in other ways

Sometimes I feel like I'm in a daze

Sometimes i feel like im In a maze

I feel like there's gonna be hell to pay

Day after day (after day)

Day after day (after day)

Day after day

don't remind me of the past cause then I'll feel the shame

Don't tell my bout my future cause I’ll feel the pain

Promise me that it won't snow and promise it won't rain

Day after day

Day after day

You either with me or you against me or you in the way

I wore the Lord's jersey in Surrey

Streets smell like curry

Wrist looks like diamond Mcflurry

I worry

Gotta wake up at 6:30

So early

My vision blurry

Cant see my goals

Can't see my dreams

Pockets so full that they

Split at the seams

Wait hol up freeze

Pause

What it this?

consciousness connected

I stand corrected

new objective

who expected

that I'd wreck it

living reckless

Disrespected

called it

texted

pockets anorexic

crime is on the checklist

unapologetic

crafted rhymed and vetted

I know I'm protected

I'm invested

to the fullest

Dodging bullets

over under

lightning Thunder

spoil plunder

what is this?)

I'm floating and sinking into an abyss

Caught in a mist

All that I had to do was take a shot and I missed

Now I just sit back and wish

And now I'm waiting for better days

When they come I'll mess up in other ways

Sometimes I feel like I'm in a daze

Sometimes i feel like im In a maze

I feel like there's gonna be hell to pay

Day after day (after day)

Day after day (after day)

Day after day