Against my will

Verse 1

I’m just surviving,
Need to prove that I exist
Like I’m worth the air I’m breathing
But still have to fight for it
I live in some kind of middle
Where nothing ends or begins
Life just keeps on passing
Like it was never meant to land

Pre-Chorus

I feel borrowed… thin… untrue
Like I’m walking in someone else’s shoes
I don’t chase the future anymore
I just trace the floor I’m standing on

Chorus

I’m not asleep, I’m not awake
Just stitched together by my own mistakes
I’m not dead, but I don’t feel alive
I learned how to stay, not how to survive
I’m still here, and it’s all so loud
I’m still breathing, but fading out
I am here… still…
But against my will

Verse 2

I don’t fall apart, I just come undone
Slowly losing to what I’ve become
I move through rooms like an afterthought
Present enough, but not enough to be caught

Pre-Chorus 2

Time keeps asking all of me
I answer late, just drift away
I feel borrowed… thin… untrue
Like I’m losing in all I do

Chorus

I’m not asleep, I’m not awake
Just stitched together by my own mistakes
I’m not dead, but I don’t feel alive
I learned how to stay, not how to survive
I’m still here, and it’s all so loud
I’m still breathing, but fading out
I am here… still…
But against my will

Bridge

I’m tired of hearing it’s getting better
Tired of holding on
Tired of picking up the pieces
Tired of just being strong
The weather wasn’t mine to choose
And I’ve been in it far too long
I’m not asking for a new life
Just one where I can feel alive

Final Chorus

I’m not asleep, I’m not awake
Just stitched together by my own mistakes
I’m not dead, but I don’t feel alive
I learned how to stay, not how to survive
I’m still here, and it’s all so loud
I’m still breathing, but fading out
I am here… still…
But against my will

Emotional Piano Ballad,,Intimate,Fragile