[Intro]
Walls so quiet
Then they start to scream
I’m locked inside it
Can’t wake from this dream (yeah)
[Verse 1]
Four gray corners in a bright blue day
I could stand up, but my thoughts say stay
They keep talking, talking, talking
Till my faith walks out and the doubt starts stalking
Man, I pace that floor in my skull like miles
Every step just echoes back my trials
Every win I had, they rewrite that page
Turn a little spark to a house on blaze
“You ain’t worth it, you ain’t anything”
Same old chorus that they love to sing
I try turning up the light in me
But they cut the power when I find belief
I’ve been staring at the ceiling in my chest
Bars made out of every time I said “I’m a mess”
Key in my palm but it feels like lead
Hands won’t move ‘cause the voice said
[Chorus]
I’m trapped in a prison in my head
Sentenced by the things that I regret
Every thought a cell, every fear a chain
Can’t outrun my own last name
These walls write stories I never said
Every word they carve leaves my hope half dead
I keep trying doors that don’t exist
This prison in my head’s got an iron fist (yeah)
[Verse 2]
Wake up, same fight, I don’t lace these shoes
I just drag my shame like it’s bulletproof
Mirror on the wall, yeah, it tells me lies
Shows my face but it hides my eyes
Voices in a circle, they surround my chair
Pull my worst memories out the air
Play them back slow, then they press rewind
Turn “one bad day” to “this is who you are inside”
“You’re a burden, you’re a waste of breath”
Little executions, little quiet deaths
I try humming hope, they just drown that sound
Put a hood on my heart, make it bow face down
I’ve been begging my brain for a brief recess
But the judge in my chest loves to over-stress
Gavel made of guilt, slams hard, I flinch
Tell me “you’ll never change” and I half believe it
[Chorus]
I’m trapped in a prison in my head
Sentenced by the things that I regret
Every thought a cell, every fear a chain
Can’t outrun my own last name
These walls write stories I never said
Every word they carve leaves my hope half dead
I keep trying doors that don’t exist
This prison in my head’s got an iron fist
[Bridge]
Is there someone on the other side
Listening for my knocking in the night
If I whisper, will it reach outside
Or am I buried in plain sight
I keep my hands up, but it ain’t for show
I’m just tired of blocking my own blows
If you find me staring into space
I’m reading all the charges on my face (yeah, yeah)
[Chorus]
‘Cause I’m trapped in a prison in my head
Sentenced by the things that I regret
Every thought a cell, every fear a chain
Can’t outrun my own last name
These walls write stories I never said
Every word they carve leaves my hope half dead
I keep trying doors that don’t exist
This prison in my head’s got an iron fist
[Outro]
Four gray corners in a bright blue day
If I ever walk out, will I know the way
Till then I’m serving time with my own ghost
Locked up tight by the one who knows me most