Emotionally Fatal

Yeah…

Neural corrosion… emotional erosion…

I can feel my psyche splitting at the seams

Listen—

Cerebral convulsions, compulsive eruptions

Skull full of vultures and ulcered assumptions

Morbidly cautious, my posture exhausted

Lost in a process of thoughts that are caustic

Eyes like supernovas—insomniac dilation

Mind in fragmentation, deprived of sedation

Trauma engraved in the folds of my memory

Venomous entropy drip through my sensory

Melancholy mixed with manic delusions

Panic-induced neurological contusions

Wicked intrusive synaptic collisions

Twist my cognition to sadistic conditions

I speak in cadences wrapped in catastrophe

Masking the agony, laughing so passively

Half of me yearning for warmth and serenity

Half of me nurturing wrath with intensity

I walk through apartment halls feeling spectral

Chest cavity hollow, emotionally septic

Every reflection look warped and asymmetrical

Like my own soul became parasitical

Pulse racing rapid in recursive loops

Truth getting strangled by self-induced noose

I’m lucid enough just to know I’m decaying

But too far gone for escaping

I’m mentally fraying, emotionally flayed

Grief in my bloodstream, rage in my veins

Psyche dismembered, composure collapsing

Every suppressed thought violently reacting

Nocturnal torment, insidious pressure

Heart so dysphoric it physically trembles

I scream in silence while smiling politely

Meanwhile the chaos inside me is frightening

Chronic dissociation fractured my cadence

Vacant expressions conceal devastation

Thoughts ricochet in psychotic crescendos

Beneath this composure’s a volatile temple

Friends see charisma—I’m masking the ruin

Internal monologues constantly brewing

Self-loathing blooming in venomous spirals

Corroding my spirit like acid on vinyl

I got abandonment carved in my marrow

Sorrow so deep it deforming my shadow

Every affection feel transient and fragile

Every attachment eventually dismantled

I romanticize disappearing completely

Then hate myself for thinking so deeply

Sleep deprivation enhancing the symptoms

Hallucinations bleed into my vision

My conscience and ego at war in confinement

One seeking peace while one glorifies violence

I’m cognitively drifting through blackened abysses

A vessel collapsing from emotional sickness

Some nights the silence gets louder than crowds

Darkness drips slow when nobody around

I clutch my chest just to feel something present

But numbness became my obsession

I’m mentally fraying, emotionally flayed

Grief in my bloodstream, rage in my veins

Psyche dismembered, composure collapsing

Every suppressed thought violently reacting

Nocturnal torment, insidious pressure

Heart so dysphoric it physically trembles

I scream in silence while smiling politely

Meanwhile the chaos inside me is frightening

Neural decay…

Soul in disarray…

If pain is a labyrinth—

I think I became the maze