Nightmares

Intro

Yeah

Uh

I been wide awake with nightmares

Yeah

Chorus

I been poppin’ pain just to feel somethin’, yeah

Demons in my head, I don’t need no friends

Love turn cold, heart numb, I don’t feel nothin’

I don’t trust nobody, they all pretend

I been livin’ fast, pray I see tomorrow

Money in my hand but my soul still hollow

I been wide awake with nightmares, no sleep

Tryna drown the pain but it swims too deep

Verse 1

I been fuckin’ up my liver, pour another cup

Mama said slow down, but I’m speedin’ up

I don’t wanna feel shit, that’s the reason I’m numb

If I let my guard down, I’m bleedin’ too much

Every bitch say “I love you,” that shit be a lie

They love the lifestyle, not the tears in my eyes

I been runnin’ from my past, yeah, I’m livin’ in sin

Tryna pray it all away but I relapse again

Got pills in my pocket, voices in my head

Told me “you ain’t shit,” now they want me dead

I smile in the mirror but I hate who I am

I don’t need a handout, I need a damn chance

Heart so cold, yeah it came with frostbite

Love me in the dark but you leave when it’s daylight

They don’t give a fuck till your name get buzz

Then they say they proud, but it’s fake as fuck

Chorus

I been poppin’ pain just to feel somethin’, yeah

Demons in my head, I don’t need no friends

Love turn cold, heart numb, I don’t feel nothin’

I don’t trust nobody, they all pretend

I been livin’ fast, pray I see tomorrow

Money in my hand but my soul still hollow

I been wide awake with nightmares, no sleep

Tryna drown the pain but it swims too deep

Verse 2

She said “baby, you different,” I heard that before

Every time I trust, I end up at war

I give you my heart, you give me a scar

Now I’m ridin’ solo in a stolen car

I been drinkin’ Hennessy like it’s holy water

Tryna wash away the sins of my father

PTSD got me stuck in my ways

I don’t fear death, I just fear the pain

Lost souls link up, yeah, misery loves company

I been poppin’ X like it’s fuckin’ candy

Doctor said “chill,” but he don’t know me

If I stop feelin’ numb, then it get lonely

I been talkin’ to God but I don’t hear back

Maybe He busy or I’m too off track

I don’t wanna die but I don’t wanna live

Stuck in between, I don’t know what to pick

Bridge

Tell me why love hurt worse than the drugs

Tell me why I still miss her touch

Tell me why the money don’t help

When I’m alone with my thoughts, fuck wealth

Chorus

I been poppin’ pain just to feel somethin’, yeah

Demons in my head, I don’t need no friends

Love turn cold, heart numb, I don’t feel nothin’

I don’t trust nobody, they all pretend

I been livin’ fast, pray I see tomorrow

Money in my hand but my soul still hollow

I been wide awake with nightmares, no sleep

Tryna drown the pain but it swims too deep

Outro

Wide awake

Still fucked up

Still alive

Barely