Hard to cry

(Mmm huh) I’m like who is this who’s hitting my phone damn I been talking to my thoughts wonder how she feeling

Started from closet now I own my studio heard people steady talk Down on my name started with some pocket change

& a goal had to cop me a new crib you don’t know what’s going through my mind wonder if she’s trustworthy went

From ramen to full meals now a days I’m filled with stress steady tryna beat a pussy up but I can’t let myself get upset

(Trapping with 223s but I gotta dream huh) I dress nice huh if only knew how deep this shit go but that’s another

Convo we’ll have I’ve been learning how to control my emotions life’s never fair

Definitely making hundreds I numb my

Pain with Benjamin’s I ain’t get this far from sitting around I can tell no one understands me chain smoking cause

I don’t drink they said juice your life’s just getting started it don’t feel like it

Feels like my life’s going downhill but I

Always keep it a hundred (can’t lie I hate sleeping alone) these nights from pain to anxiety shit get wicked ive been

Day dreaming about being famous (hm mhm) I prefer real love death just keep following me I remember nights I was

Down bad like I make music cause that’s how I cope I wanna live a good life but that’s unrealistic I came up with

The family I could give you 2 million reasons why I’m the way I am lately I’ve been on the road I got what you need

I remember writing now I’m releasing songs back to back started from scratch now I’m rebuilding myself

I know these cops want me behind bars but I can’t allow that still got so much to

Do before my time comes got sisters to

Take care of I be thinking to myself how’d I get this far it go (ba boom) keep it strapped cause I can’t get caught

Lacking I done smoke so much I’m faded need you when I’m feeling alone they said Jay ain’t doing shit but I been

Dropping dropping behind the scenes give a fuck what they say about me been fighting demons back to back

Youngest to do it never had the chance to move mama out the streets but I still can continue chasing my dreams i be

Envisioning my future big money dreams but I gotta keep going harder

Been doing this music for 4 years i do

This shit for my family chain smoking it look like clouds when I’m in my room I’m blacking out to many times I’ve been

Did wrong I’ve been loosing to much sleep I swear these fuck boys always talking reckless unless I (ba boom)

Huh mmm hm