Dirty Pain

Rain on the window… but there’s no storm outside

Just a heavy quiet like the world stopped talkin’ back

Phone light flickers at 1%… no charger, no signal

Everything I owe… still awake in my head

Bills don’t sleep

Debt don’t blink

Time don’t wait

And I swear… I hear my own name in the delay of the flight board

Gate 7… delayed again

Same message… different day

But it feel like somethin’ watching me stay stuck here

And I can’t tell if I’m tryna leave…

or if I’m already gone

But in my I head I hear

Broke, broke, broke—I can’t cope, no joke

Low balance ghost, every deposit get choked

Hit, then it vanish, like a note in the smoke

Tryna grab it, it’s gone, I’m just holdin’ the hope

Overdraft, overdrawn, overload on the fees

Owe it all, every call got a hold on me

No release, no relief, just a roll of the debt

Whole check gettin’ ate, I don’t hold nothin’ yet

Phone on storage maxed, can’t record, can’t snap

Life feel the same way, too packed, too trapped

Tap, tap, delete, still lag, still crash

Tryna free up space but the past come back

Gate say delay, then they say it again

Same play in my life every day that I’m in

Get close, then it shift, like a glitch in the sim

I’m a step from the win then I fade to the rim

Broke but I’m workin’, every button I press

Every lever I pull, I’m investin’ what’s left

Stretchin’ every second, every breath, every rep

Turn a mess to a method, every loss to a step

Mud on my shoes, had to trudge through the grit

Blood, sweat, tears, I was stuck in the pit

But I dug, didn’t quit, kept a clutch on the grit

Now I’m cut from a cloth you can’t touch or predict

Dark thoughts talk, but I walk with a plan

Spark in the dark, I’ma carve what I can

Scars on my heart, but I charge, I advance

From the start I was marked, now I’m part of the stance

Broke, broke, broke—but I’m breakin’ the mold

No fold, ten toes in the cold, I’m controlled

Every debt, every doubt gettin’ sold, then I’m sold

On the vision I wrote—I can’t stay broke, I won’t

Click, clack, shift—yeah I’m stuck in the gears

Tank on E but I’m runnin’ off fear

Tightrope steps, I been walkin’ for years

One wrong move, everything disappears

Static in my head, but I’m tunin’ it clear

Loose wires spark, now the vision sincere

Built from scraps

Locked in a maze, had to map my route

Dead ends everywhere, still had to figure it out

I was broke in the dark, now I’m breakin’ it out

I was broke, I was stuck, I was buried

never let it define what I’m really givin’

Every delay was just time in disguise

Every loss was a lesson I had to survive

I don’t fold, I don’t stop, I don’t break, I adjust

Turned nothin’ into somethin’ just by learnin’ to trust

So if it feel like it’s over, nah, it’s just startin’ to shift

I was down in the mud, now I’m built for this

And I swear every setback just made me more trained

One day it all gon’ land, all gon’ click, all gon’ show

And I’ll look back at this moment like, “that’s what made me grow”

Like my phone I need space

I need me