Can't let go

Verse 1
Check the lock, then check it again,
Windows shut, but it never ends.
Hands in the water, skin turned red,
Chasing the silence inside my head.

Pre-Chorus
I know it’s small, I know it’s thin,
But the fear keeps screaming deep within.

Chorus
I can’t let go, I can’t break free,
Chains of thought wrap around me.
Doors and windows replay on a loop,
A thousand times before I move.
Hands raw, heart racing, no escape,
Trapped in the ritual, trapped in the shape.

Verse 2
Books aligned, clothes folded tight,
Every line has to look just right.
One thing wrong and the panic grows,
A storm inside that nobody knows.

Pre-Chorus
I try to fight, I try to stay,
But the fear won’t ever fade away.

Chorus
I can’t let go, I can’t break free,
Chains of thought wrap around me.
Doors and windows replay on a loop,
A thousand times before I move.
Hands raw, heart racing, no escape,
Trapped in the ritual, trapped in the shape.

Bridge
Why can’t I rest, why can’t I breathe?
Control’s the only god I believe.
Screaming inside but no one hears,
Locked in the cycle, drowned in fear.

Final Chorus (lifted)
I can’t let go, I can’t break free,
Living with the weight of this disease.
Doors and windows still haunt my mind,
A thousand times just to feel aligned.
Hands raw, heart breaking, still I pray,
Maybe tomorrow it fades away.

Outro
Wash, scrub, realign,
Maybe someday I’ll be fine.

female alternative rock/emo