You Wouldn’t Want This

I ended the world… piece by piece

Not because I had to…

Because I wanted to

Because they took you from me

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But if you could see me now

I think you’d turn away

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Cities fall and I don’t feel a thing

Ash like snow, silence it brings

I thought revenge would bring you close

But all I found was your ghost

Every fire spells out your name

But it don’t sound the same

You used to look at me with light

Now I can’t meet your eyes in my mind

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You used to say “don’t lose your way”

But I buried that with your grave

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You wouldn’t want this

You wouldn’t want me like this

Covered in the ruin I made

Drowning in the price that I paid

I tried to bring you back through the end

But all I did was break what you loved instead

Now I hear your voice in the silence persist

Saying “you wouldn’t… you wouldn’t want this”

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I see you standing in the smoke

But every word you say just chokes

“You were supposed to save them all”

Now I’m the reason everything falls

I traded mercy for the flame

But you never played that game

You gave me something I destroyed

Now I’m left here paranoid

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You believed in who I was

Now I’m everything you never loved

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You wouldn’t want this

You wouldn’t want me like this

Covered in the ruin I made

Drowning in the price that I paid

I tried to bring you back through the end

But all I did was break what you loved instead

Now I hear your voice in the silence persist

Saying “you wouldn’t… you wouldn’t want this”

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If I could undo every flame

Every life, every name

Would it bring you back to me

Or just show you what I became

I hear you say “this isn’t right”

Every time I close my eyes

But I can’t stop, I can’t pretend

I don’t want to see you again

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You were meant to save them…

Not destroy everything

This isn’t love…

This is pain wearing your face

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You wouldn’t want this

You wouldn’t want me like this

I became the end of your light

Just to try to make it right

I burned the world to reach your hand

But you don’t recognize who I am

Now all that’s left in the abyss

Is your voice saying “stop… not like this”

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I thought if I broke everything…

I could find a way back to you

But all I did…

Was become someone you would never choose

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And that’s the part that kills me