Glass God

All alone in a glass house

Lie awake ’til the sun’s out

Pink sky when I come down

I never wanted it my way

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Yeah, I lost who I was

Alcohol in my blood

It was killing my brain

Had me numb to the love

I hated myself, hated my guts

Stuck in the rain, stuck in the mud

Life like a flood, drowning in us

Hiding the truth, hiding the cuts

Hiding the tears like I wasn’t hurt

But this pain ran deep, this shit worked

Wishing I’d fade, wishing I’d go

Asking the sky, “Why was I born?”

Why wasn’t I warned ’bout the storms ahead?

All the nights crying alone in bed

Devil in the corner, waiting his turn

Caught me slipping when my trust got burned

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If there’s a God, why won’t he speak?

If there’s a God, why feel so weak?

If there’s a God, please rescue me

Before I lose what’s left of me

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All alone in a glass house

Wide awake ’til the sun’s out

I tried love through the drugs now

Lost myself when I shut down

Throw me in the flame, let it burn away

Wash me clean with the rain again

If I break, let it shape my pain

I’m still here — I didn’t fade

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I searched for love in a chemical high

Thought numbing the hurt would heal my mind

But it only buried the real inside

Insecurity feeding me lies

Too proud to ask for help at all

Fake smiles hanging on the wall

Walking on eggshells every day

One wrong step and I’d break in half

Mask on tight, couldn’t take it off

Heart so cold it almost dissolved

Hatred grew, it evolved with time

But I came to my senses just in time

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Then I realized — my God ain’t fear

My God ain’t shame, my God ain’t tears

My God ain’t pills or a bottle of lies

My God lives deep behind my eyes

My God is love, my God is breath

My God is choosing life from death

I stopped looking up, started looking in

And found the light I buried then

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All alone in a glass house

But the cracks let the light out

Every scar got a sound now

Every fall taught me how

Throw me in the flame, I won’t burn away

I’ll come back stronger from yesterday

What didn’t kill me wrote my name

In the fire — I stayed

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Every breath we take is divine

Every wound just rewrote time

I turned my pain to art instead

Darkest nights lead brightest days

Have faith

Just believe

Forever