Rust and Reverie

Woke up in a cage of calendars

Every square a promise I forgot

Coffee stains on crumpled letters

All the things I said I’m not

Bite my tongue ‘til it tastes like copper

Scroll my sins till my thumbs go numb

Every mirror makes the room feel smaller

Who the hell have I become?

I am rust and reverie

Holding on to broken teeth

All this weight on shaking knees

Still I rise

Still I breathe

If my scars are all I see

Let them cut this stone in me

I am rust and reverie

But I won’t fade quietly

Dragged my doubt like chains through daylight

Smiled so hard my jaw gave in

Every laugh a little landmine

Every touch a phantom limb

If I’m cracked then light can enter

If I’m lost then I can choose

Carve a prayer into the center

Of everything I stand to lose

I am rust and reverie

Holding on to broken teeth

All this weight on shaking knees

Still I rise

Still I breathe

If my scars are all I see

Let them cut this stone in me

I am rust and reverie

But I won’t fade quietly

(hey!)

Let the doubt fall dead in the silence

Let the past turn dust in my hands

I’ve been walking circles in violence

Now I draw a line in the sand

I am rust and reverie

Holding on to broken teeth

All this weight on shaking knees

Still I rise

Still I breathe

If my scars are all I see

Let them cut this stone in me

I am rust and reverie

I am rust

I am rust

But I won’t fade quietly