(So many nights I was crying) ain’t gone lie I’ve been fighting my demons so long but swear nothings wrong they say stay Focused I’ve been trying I word to my mother I’ve been tryna do better & move on even met some one who’s Steady in my mind I’ve been going through still I smile all of the shit that’s been happening tryna make it so I can Feed my familia I can’t ever go out crying lately I’ve been so focused on myself while making this music waking Up late at night tryna seem like the only on that make me feel peace is my bitch now a days I’ve been to lost fully healed But still got trauma in my head so many night I woke up sweating & gasping all of these memories steady stuck in my Mind on my sister I ain’t ever felt okay since I was 16 when mama died I swear that kid in me died that day I’ve been Loosing it tryna smile & focus on the future no cap I just need my bitch to hold me telling me it’s gone be ok Been tryna keep my head high got to many in my business not gonna lie I’m exhausted all this money on me can’t fix The pain I felt in my soul I wanted my own kid and family but I’ve been working to hard always in the studio Only way I’m going is up if you ask I’m ok I’ll say I’m fine cause I can’t open up been tryna keep my family together but It’s slowly dying word to bro I can’t get caught lacking steady tryna move away from depression but when it’s late at Night my feeling be hitting that’s why I’m steady FaceTiming the only person I’ve been talking to seems that’s the Only time I get a good nights rest tryna keep myself together I just been stuck in my head I’m too young to be feeling so Tired been passing out with no memory Swear these charges gone be the end of me (they always say Jay keep going) How when I feel so alone feels like no one’s really listening to me but I’ve been Chilling lately feeling so helpless tryna Stay alive (I swear I’m loosing my grip all of these memories got me going…) Insane that’s why I’ve been healing Myself with these tracks I just been fighting all my thoughts can’t remember the last time I cried shit bout to make Me crash out all I’ve been spitting is the truth you just gotta listen deeply tryna do right but it seem like all I do is wrong Swear my mother protecting me from all these demons I’ve been through so much shit nobody understands me To many nights I done prayed for shit to get better word to my mother I’m tryna fall Inlove and build my own family & I don’t know what’s wrong that’s the question I’m steady asking but haven’t found the answer to many nights I cried I’m still trying to smile but I be stuck in my head wish I could call my mothers phone shit ain’t been the same since She passed I’m tryna stay strong but nobody knows about the shit I feel deep in my head I’ve been under to much Stress steady smoking back to back on my sister….

Exhausted