Just go

Its been,

300 days since I got to love you

& longer since the day I chose to leave

Little did I know how hard it would be

To let you go, to mourn & grieve

You're the longest person I've known

Gave you my everything

Never had love in ways your show'n

& so, I would keep on giving

Gave more than I had

I didnt know that

Supposedly

I was meant to hold onto some for me

(& thats why...)

I forgot that I was,

The woman you fell for

Because I thought,

That Showing up for you

Meant that I needed to,

Sacrifice all the parts of me

You seemed like you hated

Or that made you get frustrated

With me

& thadid what I could to

Make sure I didnt lose you

Body took more than it could bare

Gave up on us before I was aware

That we

Were living in our worst nightmare

Fell for eachother, as eachother,

You do you & I'll do me

But kept trying to change into who we believed the other wanted us to be

In the end, ultimately

That fucked us both, equally.

We were supposed to love eachother,

Not fight a war against one another

Or

Constantly be frustrated & sad

- we were meant to understand

Why we did what we did & all the ways that we made each our lives so fucking hard everyday

Til we had to give up cos we'd gone through so much cos the world had already been so fucken rough - on both of us!

& thats cos

We didn't know

The love we had wasnt first rate

It was a total shit show

Where we

Cut eachother with words that got sharper than a knife & hurt even harder

Leaving wounds so fucken deep

That the only thing left was for you to leave.

I forgot the woman you fell for was me

Cos I believed

Showing up for you, meant I needed to,

Sacrifice the parts that seemed

Like you hated me always frustrated at me

So Did what I thought would make sure I didnt lose you

But my body couldn't handle it anymore

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Oo oh oh ohhh

We know, we tried

over & over, again & again

&

Love isn't always enough

It's been blinding us

To stick to vows that we made

Yet constantly continued to break

Why do we keep on pretending

Not to see that obviously

Its time - this is our ending

At least we tried our best

It's hurt both of us so much

Now it's time to rest

(We can)

Heal, cry, get angry and try

To move on, to carry on

Feels so fucked up like I wanna die

I can't do it i don't want to i don't know why

I can't breathe , can't sleep, can't eat

I can't be away from you

I can't leave

This wasn't supposed to happen to me

God Dammit! You're my family!

What the hell do I do now!?!

Theres no more you,

I know I gotta stop seeing you

Wanting to be with you, talk to you,

& Share my things with you

No more thinking of you & dreaming of you

& I gotta stop planning my future with you!

Oh my god! The rest of life I was supposed to have with you!!

Gotta let go of that too

You left me & I left you

No idea how to live without you here

Feels so wrong

But its time to say goodbye to fear

& try to carry on