Fade me out

[Verse 1]
I’ve been sleeping with the TV on,
Not for comfort—just to drown the thoughts.
Bottle by bottle, I build my shrine,
To the ghosts I never meant to find.

The mirror don’t lie, but it don’t speak truth,
It just stares like it's waiting for proof.
The walls hum static and the silence screams,
Another day trapped in dead-end dreams.

[Chorus]
There’s no exit, just echoes,
And I can’t tell what’s real no more.
Falling into myself like a black hole,
Too far gone to find the door.
If I vanish, would it matter?
Would the noise just fill the space?
I'm not living, just decaying,
At a comfortably numb pace.

[Verse 2]
Friends fade out like cigarette burns,
Love's a word that never returns.
Laughed with me till I ran dry,
Now they ghost me like I never tried.

My phone lights up, but it’s never them,
Just more bills, more fake amen.
Tried God, tried dope, tried sleeping through—
But even my dreams don't want the truth.

[Bridge]
And I lie…
To myself so well, I forget I’m dying.
Smile on my face, soul barely trying.
I scream into pillows, write songs I won’t show,
'Cause the pain is the only thing left I know.

[Chorus]
There’s no exit, just echoes,
And the shadows know my name.
I’ve worn every mask, played every role,
Still haunted by the same damn shame.
If I disappear tomorrow,
Let the bottle write the note.
I’ve been drowning for a decade,
And still no one thought to float.

[Outro – Spoken, barely above a whisper]
I don’t want help. I want peace.
I don’t want love. I want release.
Don’t pray for me—I’m not broken.
Just...
Already gone.


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Genre: Dark Lo-fi / Alt-R&B / Trip-hop fusion
Mood: Sober realization, regret, isolation, accepting damnation