Amen (I'm Trying)

Verse 1
I wish I could say I figured it out
That all of my doubts are gone now
But I still wake up every day
With the same weight pulling me down

I still question everything
Every word I try to say
Every prayer that leaves my lips
Feels like it might drift away

Pre-Chorus
I don’t know what faith should be
But I’m not who I used to be

Chorus
Amen, I’m trying
Even when I feel like dying
Even when the silence screams
Louder than my broken dreams

Amen, I’m trying
Even if my hope is dying
I don’t need to understand
Just help me be who I am

Verse 2
I still fall back into old ways
Still get lost in the same haze
Still forget the things you said
When the darkness fills my head

But I’m not running anymore
Like I did so many times before
Even when I’m terrified
I’m still standing at your door

Pre-Chorus
I don’t know what faith should be
But I’m not who I used to be

Chorus
Amen, I’m trying
Even when I feel like dying
Even when the silence screams
Louder than my broken dreams

Amen, I’m trying
Even if my hope is dying
I don’t need to understand
Just help me be who I am

Bridge (soft → soaring)
Maybe this is all I need
Not a cure, just room to breathe
Not a sign or grand design
Just a reason not to leave

I’m not fixed and I’m not clean
Still somewhere in between
But I’m not letting go tonight
Of what I almost believed

Final Chorus (huge)
Amen, I’m trying
Even when I feel like dying
Even when the silence screams
Louder than my broken dreams

Amen, I’m trying
Even if my hope is dying
I don’t need to understand
Just help me be who I am

Not healed, just trying—an emotional emo rock closer about holding on to fragile faith without having all the answers.