Running from Myself

Yeah…

I’ve been tryna find peace in a war zone

Every breath I take feel like a milestone

Mind gone, thoughts loud like a cyclone

Tell me why the silence always feel like a dial tone?

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Lately I been trapped in my head again

Tired of pretending I’m better than

All these demons in my bed again

Wake up sweatin’ in adrenaline

No light in the tunnel that I’m racin’ through

Tried prayer, pills, and a shot or two

Still feel the void and it’s breakin’ through

Mirror cracked, can’t face the truth

I don’t really talk much, I suppress pain

Smile on my face but it’s just fake

Heart beatin’ heavy like a freight train

Lost in my mind like a damn maze

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I’m running from myself

But I always end up here again

Tryna scream for help

But it echoes in my skin

Every day’s a war

And I’m fightin’ it within

Can’t outrun the dark

It lives under my skin

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Panic in my chest, can’t breathe, can’t cope

Tied a hundred knots at the end of my rope

Told me to heal but they gave me no hope

Tell me to climb when they cut what I wrote

Every scar is a story I hide

Every truth is a ghost in disguise

I wear pain like a second disguise

But no one can see it behind these eyes

Try to find solace in late nights

But I end up drownin’ in stage lights

Everything fake, can’t feel right

Even my shadow tryna start fights

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I’m running from myself

But I always end up here again

Tryna scream for help

But it echoes in my skin

Every day’s a war

And I’m fightin’ it within

Can’t outrun the dark

It lives under my skin

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I been searchin’, I been searchin’

For a reason not to close the curtain

I been hurtin’, I been hurtin’

But I still keep the fire burnin’

Even when I feel worthless

Even when the pain resurface

I write these words like verses

Hopin’ someone out there heard this

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I’m running from myself

But I always end up here again

Tryna scream for help

But it echoes in my skin

Every day’s a war

And I’m fightin’ it within

Can’t outrun the dark

It lives under my skin