Say My Name Backwards

**Verse 1**

I carved your birthday in the paint

Of every wall I own

So even when I turn the lights off

I’m never alone

I hear you in the plumbing

In the static on the line

Every stranger’s silhouette

Is just your shape in disguise

I don’t sleep — I patrol the dark

Like you might call my bluff

Like you might knock at 3AM

And say you’ve had enough

**Pre-Chorus**

They tell me this is madness

That love’s not supposed to bruise

But sanity’s a luxury

I already chose to lose

**Chorus**

Say my name backwards

Spin it like a curse

If I can’t have your heaven

I’ll settle for your worst

I’ll wear you like a fever

I’ll sharpen every spark

If you won’t let me in your light

I’ll live inside the dark

You think you left me shattered

You think I broke in two

But broken things are sharper

And I still cut for you

**Verse 2**

I keep your voicemail on repeat

Till the words don’t make sense

It’s not about the meaning

It’s about the evidence

That you were real, you happened

You breathed against my skin

Because if I admit you’re gone

Then nothing’s ever been

I taste you in the back of my throat

Like blood I can’t spit out

You call it “overreacting”

I call it “figuring it out.”

**Pre-Chorus**

You said I need to let you go

Like it’s a simple trade

But you don’t amputate a limb

And walk away okay

**Chorus**

Say my name backwards

Pretend it isn’t mine

Tell yourself I’m crazy

For not respecting signs

I’ll trace your steps in city blocks

I’ll memorize your street

If love’s a game of hide and seek

I refuse defeat

You think this is obsession

You think I’ve lost control

But I’d rather be possessed by you

Than exorcise my soul

**Bridge (unraveling)**

I don’t want peace.

I don’t want grace.

I want the look

That was on your face

The night you said

“You’re all I need.”

Now I replay it

Till my ears bleed.

**Breakdown (volatile, breathless)**

I am not a phase.

I am not a scar.

You don’t get to heal

And forget who we are.

If you erase me

I’ll rewrite truth.

I’ll haunt every room

You try to move through.

**Final Chorus (manic, collapsing)**

Say my name backwards

Scream it in your sleep

Even if you hate me

At least it means you keep

Some part of what we were

Some fracture in your chest

If I can’t be your future

I’ll be what you repress

**Outro (quiet, cracked)**

You call me unhinged.

Maybe I am.

But at least I never

Stopped loving you.

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